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anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-15 07:17 pm
anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-15 07:17 pm
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damn, dook's back on deviantart. at least i know to stay far away from that guy ;P
MadameMarie (anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-13 02:20 pm
anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-13 02:20 pmEntry tags:
hmmmm?hmmmmm.
hellloooooo. ummm, so yesterday was.. eh. it was the day of my spanish final exam, and since we could leave early, i had the house to myself for a couple of hours :3 then i had to go to some food park thing with a family friend, though i didn't eat much since i had already ate at home. i ate a slice of pizza, a chicken wing, potato.. thing, manchego croquettes and a carrot cupcake. everything was pretty good ^_^ they were also playing some rock songs there, though the singer's microphone was very obviously malfunctioning. it was fun at first, but then i was starting to get sleepy and REALLY needed to use the bathroom.. but they were still talking. this was going on for like, an hour or so. then we FINALLY left, went home and i drank some tea, watched a documentary and fell asleep.
it wasn't so bad, really. it's better than having to babysit the entire day, that's for sure :P
any who, i'm thinkin' of signing up for an archive over @ sheezyart... but, man, i gotta update my website's archive too, and 3 archives surely seems like overkill... eeeeek, i don't know what i wanna do!___@ it does seem to have a nicer community compared to devART, though. but, still... an awful lot of archives, for sure ;_; atleast it isn't instagram or twitter, i guess.
it wasn't so bad, really. it's better than having to babysit the entire day, that's for sure :P
any who, i'm thinkin' of signing up for an archive over @ sheezyart... but, man, i gotta update my website's archive too, and 3 archives surely seems like overkill... eeeeek, i don't know what i wanna do!
___@ it does seem to have a nicer community compared to devART, though. but, still... an awful lot of archives, for sure ;_; atleast it isn't instagram or twitter, i guess.
MadameMarie (anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-10 10:37 pm
anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-10 10:37 pm
musings of some kid
today was boring...again. school was average, and since finals week is coming we didn't really do much in terms of work. i spent all day coding my website's new look, too, and i'm proud to say that it's out now! there's still some underdeveloped parts (although all links work as far as I know), but i'm just glad that it's complete enough to be revealed. it's now a journal, too... which might prove to be a bit complicated considering i already have a journal here, but oh well. i'll likely use that journal for more personal stuff and less significant updates to the website, i suppose.
anywho, later on i went to krispy kreme's to get some donuts and to walmart, to buy... nothing. originally, we were gonna buy a sweater for my sis, but i guessed they gave up on it. my sister was being really bratty in the store, too ;_; she thinks that whatever she asks for, she'll get. though, she's not even 3 yet, so i'll give her a pass. ahhh... by the way, my braces are gonna get removed in a few days! i'm so nervous, feels like i've had them forever... i'm not ready to part ways T_T though, it'd certainly make brushing and eating much easier, no?
anyway, i'm gonna go listen to some happy hardcore and then go to sleep. buh-bye ^_^
anywho, later on i went to krispy kreme's to get some donuts and to walmart, to buy... nothing. originally, we were gonna buy a sweater for my sis, but i guessed they gave up on it. my sister was being really bratty in the store, too ;_; she thinks that whatever she asks for, she'll get. though, she's not even 3 yet, so i'll give her a pass. ahhh... by the way, my braces are gonna get removed in a few days! i'm so nervous, feels like i've had them forever... i'm not ready to part ways T_T though, it'd certainly make brushing and eating much easier, no?
anyway, i'm gonna go listen to some happy hardcore and then go to sleep. buh-bye ^_^
solvalou (solvalou) wrote2025-12-09 07:13 pm
solvalou) wrote2025-12-09 07:13 pm
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fear
its time for me to hear back from my universities i am applying to.
im a bit worried.
its weird to have your future determined by people who you will never meet.
i shouldnt be this anxious. i have nothing left to do except wait and see what happens. I have worked so hard my entire life to get to this point and im going to continue to work hard. if they cant accept that, if they cant accept me for who i am and what ive done and what i want to do in the future, then so be it. maybe it wasnt the right place for me anyway.
i cant change what they need. i cant change what they feel about me.
all i know is, whether or not i get accepted, rejected, deferred, waitlisted, whatever other words an institution decides to use, i am not telling a soul.
its just none of their business. hopefully my disposition and my face doesnt give it away when it comes.
they keep mocking me and telling me theyre applying to the same places i am just to prove that they can get in and i cant.
either 1, they are lying and are applying because they intend to go there, or 2, they are extremely petty and have a lot of money to throw around.
either way, what the fuck. its already enough that school is stressing everyone out, but making our futures a competition...?
maybe thats just how the world is. its always a competition to everyone. wherever i go, i hope i can meet people who dont treat life as a zero-sum game. people who are honest and people who i can be honest with. people who can respect difference and be more mature when it comes to arguments.
im tired man. my teachers at school have always told me that i belong at college or university already.
maybe its true. i just hope i find the right place to belong to. but that's out of my control now.
im a bit worried.
its weird to have your future determined by people who you will never meet.
i shouldnt be this anxious. i have nothing left to do except wait and see what happens. I have worked so hard my entire life to get to this point and im going to continue to work hard. if they cant accept that, if they cant accept me for who i am and what ive done and what i want to do in the future, then so be it. maybe it wasnt the right place for me anyway.
i cant change what they need. i cant change what they feel about me.
all i know is, whether or not i get accepted, rejected, deferred, waitlisted, whatever other words an institution decides to use, i am not telling a soul.
its just none of their business. hopefully my disposition and my face doesnt give it away when it comes.
they keep mocking me and telling me theyre applying to the same places i am just to prove that they can get in and i cant.
either 1, they are lying and are applying because they intend to go there, or 2, they are extremely petty and have a lot of money to throw around.
either way, what the fuck. its already enough that school is stressing everyone out, but making our futures a competition...?
maybe thats just how the world is. its always a competition to everyone. wherever i go, i hope i can meet people who dont treat life as a zero-sum game. people who are honest and people who i can be honest with. people who can respect difference and be more mature when it comes to arguments.
im tired man. my teachers at school have always told me that i belong at college or university already.
maybe its true. i just hope i find the right place to belong to. but that's out of my control now.
<< Miss Nikki ☆ >> (windclocktown) wrote2025-12-08 11:34 am
windclocktown) wrote2025-12-08 11:34 amFlip off SISTAH
Following up from the last entray... I got a new phone again. This time it's 3X more cheaper than the last one, and plus it flips. WOW. What sucks is that I dunno how to pimp that main menu screen, so in defeat I installed a home screen software called HOME+ (found randomly on the internet) and I was mindblown... it took me 7 years back. The glitter, the galaxy patterns, the vintage and those overblown photoshop filters, and cute themes too. It pissed me off that you have to install each as an app, and it's bedridden with advertisements like toktok or whatever.
I have exams too. Geometry first thang in the morning! WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT? Uhhh... anyhoo, I was thinking about going back to drawing and CGing stuff. I've got stuff pending like drawing Juha and Anouk's Ringo together with the lyrics to Cypress Hill's INSANE IN THE BRAIN.
Just toss that ham in the frying pan... damn I feel like the son of Sam...
Well isn't that song addicting... lol
I might have time to look at Arphalia's cute gothic-art-deco art and 0r0kun's stuff (like usual... man, I love his picture when it comes to humor)
Alright. I head underground to the next town and hide from the red infrared light. Nikki off n.n
I have exams too. Geometry first thang in the morning! WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT? Uhhh... anyhoo, I was thinking about going back to drawing and CGing stuff. I've got stuff pending like drawing Juha and Anouk's Ringo together with the lyrics to Cypress Hill's INSANE IN THE BRAIN.
Just toss that ham in the frying pan... damn I feel like the son of Sam...
Well isn't that song addicting... lol
I might have time to look at Arphalia's cute gothic-art-deco art and 0r0kun's stuff (like usual... man, I love his picture when it comes to humor)
Alright. I head underground to the next town and hide from the red infrared light. Nikki off n.n
MadameMarie (anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-07 04:45 pm
anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-07 04:45 pm
rrrrrr
i really hope my parents buy me a secondhand windows computer for christmas rather than buying a brand new one. i really don't know what to feel about microsoft nowadays considering they're apparently supporting Isreal in the genocide over at Palestine, or so i've heard. but it's very likely that they won't, and it's not like they'd listen to the likes of me anyway ;_;
edit: though, we DO have a windows that my stepdad is thinking of handing down to me. i hope we can get the screen fixed (intel laptop screens are... something else, that's for sure) and maybe (if i'm lucky and not stupid enough) revert it back to win10 using that weird official method provided by Microsoft, windows 11 sucks balls.
edit: though, we DO have a windows that my stepdad is thinking of handing down to me. i hope we can get the screen fixed (intel laptop screens are... something else, that's for sure) and maybe (if i'm lucky and not stupid enough) revert it back to win10 using that weird official method provided by Microsoft, windows 11 sucks balls.
MadameMarie (anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-05 11:23 am
anti_clockwork) wrote2025-12-05 11:23 ami smell old oil and it smells amazing
hi, friends ^_^ been while a while since I last made an actual journal post instead of posting stupid filler. so, life's been... with lack of a better word, a bit of a rollercoaster.
i've been a bit stressed lately with school, since I had like a thousand things to turn in this week (but I managed!), and now i'm wondering if I should do a birthday party this weekend because I'm busy + most of my friends won't be able to come. this weekend i might go to my dad's so he can celebrate my birthday (which was 4 days ago, but hey, who said they only have to last a day?) and maybe afterwards when i leave his place i'll go with my girlfriend to go help cats, or something along those lines. i've been making a surprising amount of art too lately, which is a bit weird for me because after like, drawing ONE decent thing, i get art block that lasts WEEKS ;_; but i ain't complaining!! i've been liking what i'm drawing lately :)
anywho, i'm thinking of temporarily shutting down my website because i'm gonna make a new layout but this time i'm thinking of releasing a more complete version rather than my stupid bad habit of releasing a layout with only 2 working links ;;^_^ i already have a basic sketch of what I want the layout to look like, so I assume I won't struggle much with the look. i'm planning on releasing it before Christmas if I start doing the layout this week.
oh, and before you get scared that my oekaki will shut down too- it won't. I'll keep it open because, well, what's the point of shutting IT down? it's not the page getting the overhaul, after all!
anyways, sorry for the boring post. felt the need to make a post after kind of neglecting my journal these past few weeks, i guess. buh bye.
(P.S. thank you again Biz for the gift!!<3)
i've been a bit stressed lately with school, since I had like a thousand things to turn in this week (but I managed!), and now i'm wondering if I should do a birthday party this weekend because I'm busy + most of my friends won't be able to come. this weekend i might go to my dad's so he can celebrate my birthday (which was 4 days ago, but hey, who said they only have to last a day?) and maybe afterwards when i leave his place i'll go with my girlfriend to go help cats, or something along those lines. i've been making a surprising amount of art too lately, which is a bit weird for me because after like, drawing ONE decent thing, i get art block that lasts WEEKS ;_; but i ain't complaining!! i've been liking what i'm drawing lately :)
anywho, i'm thinking of temporarily shutting down my website because i'm gonna make a new layout but this time i'm thinking of releasing a more complete version rather than my stupid bad habit of releasing a layout with only 2 working links ;;^_^ i already have a basic sketch of what I want the layout to look like, so I assume I won't struggle much with the look. i'm planning on releasing it before Christmas if I start doing the layout this week.
oh, and before you get scared that my oekaki will shut down too- it won't. I'll keep it open because, well, what's the point of shutting IT down? it's not the page getting the overhaul, after all!
anyways, sorry for the boring post. felt the need to make a post after kind of neglecting my journal these past few weeks, i guess. buh bye.
(P.S. thank you again Biz for the gift!!<3)
[ b i z e t t e ] ★ (porcelainlamb) wrote2025-12-05 02:13 pm
porcelainlamb) wrote2025-12-05 02:13 pm
KANDIIIIIIII ^_^
Hi pookies! How are we doing today? Just got my new bracelets in the mail, and I'm so fricking happy about how adorable they are! I have another one coming on Monday; so I'll have a complete set, woohoo!!! :D My week's been stressful but decent for the most part, and I've just uploaded a new adopt to make some money too since I need to do some Christmas shopping. I've started replaying Neopets again since I remembered that my account still exists, kek! I've also started reading Freak Show by James St James, and I'm loving it!!! Billy is hilarious and relatable! :) I'll leave a sweet pic for ya, since I have nothing else to say, lulz >ܫ<: