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Flip off SISTAH [Dec. 8th, 2025|11:34 am]
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[Current Music |Is it a reebok or a nike? repeatedly in my head]
[Current Mood | Content... maybe]
[Current Location |Skool]

 Following up from the last entray... I got a new phone again. This time it's 3X more cheaper than the last one, and plus it flips. WOW. What sucks is that I dunno how to pimp that main menu screen, so in defeat I installed a home screen software called HOME+ (found randomly on the internet) and I was mindblown... it took me 7 years back. The glitter, the galaxy patterns, the vintage and those overblown photoshop filters, and cute themes too. It pissed me off that you have to install each as an app, and it's bedridden with advertisements like toktok or whatever. 

I have exams too. Geometry first thang in the morning! WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT? Uhhh... anyhoo, I was thinking about going back to drawing and CGing stuff. I've got stuff pending like drawing Juha and Anouk's Ringo together with the lyrics to Cypress Hill's INSANE IN THE BRAIN.

Just toss that ham in the frying pan... damn I feel like the son of Sam...

Well isn't that song addicting... lol

I might have time to look at Arphalia's cute gothic-art-deco art and 0r0kun's stuff (like usual... man, I love his picture when it comes to humor) 

Alright. I head underground to the next town and hide from the red infrared light. Nikki off n.n
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I've been naughty this krismas [Nov. 19th, 2025|07:24 pm]
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[Current Music |After - The Field]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood |Grumpy]

 I got this spankin' new phone, a blue Unihertz Jelly Star, and I luv it. It's tiny and perfect for my hand, and I don't have to deal with 6-inch phones. But today one of kids in the band must've played with it (they found my phone interestin) and dropped it.

I participated in the Christmas concert today, and during each breaks I (in tha handbell choir baby) had to share an 11th graders' room with a bunch of guitar-playing kids my brother's age. I promised not to play with phones during school time, but nope... I left the bag in the auditorium, but I did bring that phone with me so I ended up trying to show off surf with the phone. No books either. Then a girl from the guitar group caught interest of my phone and asked where I acquired this phone, and all I did was "It was on sale on Lazada, for 8,700, but then there's a sale and the price is lowered to 7,000". And for the last round, while I was upstairs performing Carol of the Bells, those boys probably ran around and fooled themselves. Or a bunch of kids tryna look at my phone. I'm guessing 2, cuz' the proximity of the table is very close to the girl. While they were holding it, it might have fallen to the ground, but that doesn't make any sense too since the fracture is very tiny. The phone was put faced down the whole time, so it won't have its screen broken... eeeeh. I dunno. Prove me wrong.

I went home (after a SAT afterschool) and told my mom about it. But mom said that it's okay and she told me to use my old one, which is 6inch, AI-bedridden, 6,000 phone. And I went WTF? I gave that phone to my brother and I am not TOUCHING IT AGAIN. In the end mom said I have to wait for a new one since buying a new one is muuuuch more better than buying a replacement piece and perform dark magic on it. Oh well. I am going to spend this month without a phone. But now I can't access messages from my classmates, which is goddang vital for my school work.

Y'know what? It's mostly my fault for taking this plastic bar with me. I can't figure out why the screen broke with its face down, though.

That's it. I am never showing off ever again. And let kids play with it.
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New Home [Nov. 3rd, 2025|07:23 pm]
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[Current Music |Miilkbone - Keep it Real]
[Current Location |New home, away from the old husk of memories]
[Current Mood | Numb]

 I finally moved to a new house, literally next road from where I once lived (Mom's childhood community). It's actually pretty decent o___o now I got my own room, but now I have to deal with my brother crashing my room. AAAAAAAARGH. Mom told me we are going to live here for a year or two until grandma dies or cools down with the box clogging the house situation. My room's pretty tiny but with a high ceiling, but it came with a small toilet, and I gotta admit, IT SUCKS. The room was extremely small, the toilet, the sink and the shower is close to each to other. I guess the only time I'll be using that crappy toilet is when I wake up early to pee or poo.

I also have this computer project too, but I think it's allowed to cool down a bit because we got lessons to catch up. Phew. I have an upcoming Christmas concert, a field trip to a historic site that has miniature replicas of other historic sites.

I need to draw more posters, decorate my room (even the landlord might not allow it), and wait for that small phone. Nikki out *chugs Fanta*
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Toy camae-RUH [Oct. 3rd, 2025|06:10 pm]
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[Current Music |My nu ringtone - Psyche Origami - Dead Right]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Okay]

Funniest thing of all is that last night - well, 3 am to be exact, there was this weird storm going on. I tell ya, there was lightning and it was 10 TIMES IN A ROW. NONSTOP. I woke up around 4 and was confused about "why is the weather acting crayzay today?" and after about 1 minute and a half I slept again. At school my friends also has a footage of what's going on outside - so it happened that one of my classmates arrived at school very early and did witness the raging storm going on. It was chaotic; constant flashing in the sky. 

Okay, let's skip to school. Today isn't exams, because all the boys are going to military training. So I'm stuck in class with the other girls and three guys (who happened not to join the military). During religious ed class I was going to play with my camera and then my friend beside me asked "Is that your camera?" and after that we took about 2-3 piccies; the next thing is that all the girls in my class were taking group photos. We shot a picture of individual photos, messing around with poses and then because I don't know how to turn on the flash, we had to use light from the phone. That's when it hits low battery ;__;

I walked around in school with my new mary janes. It hurts when you have to crisscross your legs while sitting on the floor. Ooowww...
But it was worth it.They looks so cute!

Mom, stepdad and grandpa's on a vacation, and the other nanny's sick, so mom's driver looked after us instead. And one more thing. I managed to make a ringtone for my 6000B tacky black glass phone. Oh I have NO IDEA why they love making rectangular phones, but I managed to transfer Psyche Origami's Dead Right in there. It wasn't iOS either because androids have a ringtone folder. Handy.

I'm off to complete an art project. Nikki out
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Blood Bubble [Oct. 2nd, 2025|08:32 pm]
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[Current Mood | Uncomfortable]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Music |Finding a new ringtone for my fone]

AP Bio test is actually okay. Multiple choice questions on the laptop is pretty decent o___o, but the worst part was the free-response questions: there are 5 questions, each have 4 parts, and the main question is EXTREMELY LONG. It took about 6-7 pages. What's worse is that after the exam one of the smart guys (who wants to be a doctor) told me that question #3 part 2's answer is hydrolysis. I spent HOURS trying to find the name of the process that breaks down molecules, so I ended up describing how the lysosome (part of the cell that breaks down) works. *punches head trillion times* AAAAAAAAA. :( this is not going to look good when I get the report card...

Now I'm studying for accounting and english. Oh yeah, and when I was walking around the room upstairs a shard of small glass stabbed my toe. OUCH. When I managed to squeeze the small shard out there was a big blood bubble out of nowhere. How can it bleed THIS much? But now I have to walk around the room in my new Mary Janes. I blame my brother and the phone he dropped earlier. Those must've been the film thingy on his phone because it's cracked.

I'm never going to let him in grandma's room again >:( anyways can't wait to draw new pictures on Katie's spanking new oekaki; I don't have trouble drawing on Fire'paca but when it comes to oekakis it ends up like a rotting carebear ;__;
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Live by the theorems and postulates [Oct. 1st, 2025|08:51 am]
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[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Location |School]
[Current Mood | Worried]

 Uwaaaaaaaa ;____; tomorrow is the start of my exams and I haven't studied yet... my biggest concern is that I have to remember every rule of geometry (because geometry is also about proving stuff) and the entirety of lessons from biology class.

I haven't submitted my digital art picture for the exam too, but since the grade is still an A, I hope it stays like that.

Ah, and nice to know that Katie's moved hosts. I want to move too (craving the advantages of PHP), but I have to keep up with all the studying and I don't think I can get the site up and running in 2 months (as the classic hosting rule goes, hostees must get their site up in 2 months, or their directory/homepage is deleted) :(

I need to go study. Hope I can remember all the postulates and whatever bio class has. *kiss* *hugs* I'm OUT!
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All aboard!! [Sep. 28th, 2025|07:31 pm]
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[Current Mood | Happy]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Music |Nothing yet]

 I went to the mall (which happened to be the hotspot for tourists and expats) with my mom today; we ate food (it was DELISH) \^o^/, we went to Kinokuniya (the bookstore) and got nothing cuz' all drawing tutorial books are from that one Japanese author who draws generic animu girls, and we took the train to the Sunday art class.

I did well at art class today! (thank gawd that teacher wasn't here because he gave me a headache) I had to color a picture with shades of gray. 

Best of all was this was the first time I took the train myself, and it was fun!!!!!!! Passed five stops, back to the mall; mom was so worried about me being kidnapped/lost but I eventually made it. Now I do wanna try and go places with that, but it's only in the central part of Bangkok. I need to learn how to use the bus because I dunno where it goes :p

But exam is in two days and I haven't studied yet :( !

Kiki OUT
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And the entire canteen looked at 'em [Sep. 16th, 2025|03:54 pm]
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[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Location |Gramma's room]
[Current Mood | Worried and bored]

I was eating barbecue Lays and spicy roasted seaweed in the canteen (it was during break time) and then this guy from the other class and a 12th grader started beating up each other. That was unexpected O____O and then they knocked a bowl of spicy sauce from a nearby table and everybody was there staring including me; so that guy (I know his name, and he used to be my classmate last year, but nopenope I am not putting his name here) was mad at another guy for posting a photo somewhere on the internet, and when it was break time he immediately choked the 12th grader. Wat. da. Fuck?

In the end only one guy (or both) got suspended for fighting. Of course.

I remember last year during the dance rehearsal for some international fair at school everybody was arguing about stage stuff, blahblahblah and then the same guy punched the desk and stormed off to the toilet. I guess he's already violent n.n;
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Aim high [Aug. 31st, 2025|06:26 pm]
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[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Worried]
[Current Music |FFK (Faye Fang Kaew) - My question]

 The extracurriculum club thingy was boring because this time they brought in a teacher who taught us about money. Me and the kids in the room played some sort of Monopoly, except you ain't buying a house; you have to pick a random job. I got elementary school teacher T_T and then each job has a starting job payment. Then you will have to go thru events like either buying a piggy bank and saving money in the bank or caught speeding and lose 100. And there are some games like UNO but those special cards mean nothing, numbers do, and the simplified version of gambling.

In the end I won because I hid alot of money with me *grin*

Mom had me go through what to do to get a communication arts diploma so that I can go to some uni. I did listen to her, but her using ChatGPT or whatever got me seething for no reason. I'm against AI. Can't chu' tell? From now on I gotta study design, psychology (soon) and biology. It's already hard o___o

And when I came out of the toilet with music in my head (and a phone, duh durrr) I accidently waved my hand near the American-indian-decoration-which-is-two-indigenous-men-rowing-a-boat-grandma-bought-17-ish-years-ago and it shattered on the floor. I felt a bit of guilt, but I cleared the mess. I have a feeling this is a foreshadowing... hope it's a... good sign? Nah, nothing comes good out of it *sobs*

( And... postscript because I found out something. READ IF YOU REALLY WANT TO. )


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Get egg'ed [Aug. 22nd, 2025|05:55 pm]
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[Current Music |Maybe Boa - Rain or Hilary Duff - Come Clean]
[Current Location |Room of despair]
[Current Mood |Guilty *just like the gear*]

It's me again. Writing the most boring entry ever n.n; . So during lunch I was ordering an omelette (for 30 baht) and while I was waiting, the lady put the freshly cooked omelette on MY plate. You see, when you order an omelette at my school, they get you a plate of rice after you order... which meant that the plate is your order (confusing, I know) and then they will fill each order.

Right. The omelette. When she put the omelette on a plate, dumb me thought that it was my order, so I brought it to the table to eat. When I tear the egg into half: that's when I fucked up :( !!!

The omelette was SOMEBODY ELSE'S ORDER... it was no plain omelette, it had chopped up sausages and cheese in it. My pulse immediately hopped, and I looked over the omelette stand. Just a girl and a guy standing by and a cook trying to add a second bowl of rice to a plate. My order was there absorbing stale air of the canteen. The egg was already cut in half, no use of returning it...

And so I ate it. I rushed it before the owner of the order could see me eating theirs, aaaand then I dumped the rest. I ran as fast as I could back to my classroom (4 floors, impressive), opened my laptop and complete my accounting homework.

Now I don't have the guts to go back to the omelette stand now T___T If I go back again I hope they would accept my apology. THIS IS WHY THEY NEED QUEUE CARDS AGAIN. >:(

Anyhoo, I had to review for geometry again. This teacher I had looked so grumpy. He talks very loud (so that the entire class could pay attention to him) and kinda looks veryveryvery stern o__o I do agree with my friend that his mood affected the entire class and now she kind of hates him. I do too, but I wish I could see him smile more often. I cannot change his will anyway... I hope the trope "teacher everybody dislikes ends up the most loving teacher ever" is upon our class. *LOL* let's just see it for ourselves.

Oh, and I'm planning to move my homepage domain to immoral-heart, because I miss having a website with a handmade photoshop-esque animu layout, very cool domain name, quirky buttons, and very nostalgic designs. If I could buy a server/hosting package that grants 1GB, I would turn it into a hosting page... just because of the link. Haha... ^_^ I want people who are desperate to get a website that has a unique link. I'm one of them! *hand up*

So heads up, I'm changing the domain to immoral-heart (it would take a million years to update the links) and I hope I could whip up a cool layout fo myself.

And I think it's my fault anyways, because the person who ordered that omelette I snatched had to eat my order or buy another one, and I think nobody eats mine anyways  TT

p.s. Happy birthday Dr. Baldhead!!! *party whistle sounds*


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It's okay but it doesn't AT ALL [Aug. 5th, 2025|03:32 pm]
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[Current Mood | Sad]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Music |Silent Hill 2 - Day of Night]

 I'm sweating buckets of sweat because I just had PE as my last class. I'm used to having PEs near afterschool, lol.

So, I'm in 10th grade now. I'm in AP Biology so I'm expected to study at home too. They called it time-extensive. But then after Geometry it goes downhill because the teacher sounds so strict about work and stuff. I know work is expected. The fact that this school year starts off strict and challenging makes me feel worse ;___;
Aside from that I haven't been active in months, better thank PE for keeping me awake.

There are friends from 5th grade alongside some from my previous class too. But the fact that nobody talked to me gave me the urge to tear people's bodies >:( (oh great. I'm edgy) but hey. My other friends in other classes seem happy. The guys in class were outgoing as usual and Folk got a new jacket. It looks so cool. Wow.

It's not doing well so far.

But if work gets sorted out I'd be happy too o__o
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Hell on Earth, HERE I COME! [Aug. 3rd, 2025|05:37 pm]
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[Current Music |Whatever I can find on Yume 2kki]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Nervous]

 Well lookit that! I have 2 days until 10th grade. 
That means I'm meeting some of my old friends from 6th grade, and some strangers ;______;
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Finals [May. 27th, 2025|07:32 pm]
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[Current Mood |Confidence slowly growing]
[Current Location |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Music |Signaldrift - And Yet (in my head)]

 Was it finals though? Since it's the last exam for 9th grade.

I've already done business, ELA, physics, and religious ed. Tomorrow's Algebra. It's a subject that matters to me alot because if I get a grade lower than C, the entire world goes dark (guaranteed blindness). I think I got the hang of it! (exclude differentiating questions that are either permutation, combination, counting techniques and factorial) And from what I've heard from my friend the paper's like 4 pages. Guess I'm dead X_____________X

Reminder: On Friday it's partay tiiiiiiimmmmeeee!!!!! >:D I don't have the slightest idea what to wear. Maybe not uniform. That said I need to beg mom to buy cool clothes...
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STEM project with 4 other highschoolers [Mar. 27th, 2025|06:31 pm]
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[Current Location |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Mood |Dreadfully hopeful]
[Current Music |KLEAR - คำยินดี]

 STEM week was fun. Highschoolers got the STEM activity late.

They randomly select students from 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th students to team up and build a rollercoaster made out of 250 straws. I was lost in the crowd (because I forgot to look at the group name the night before) but coincidentally the 11th grader in the group spotted my behind her back. We did tons of figuring (on how to make a rollercoaster that makes the ball last the longest in the tracks)
and the guys in the group did most of it. Our group was situated in the middle of the auditorium (groups numbered 33-40+ had to do their projects in the classrooms) and then friends of a girl in the group dared this guy to beatbox; so loud that the groups around the area started looking at us O_O

Jeeja kept visiting me. Yeah. Our rollercoaster was 2nd tallest in height (1st was somebody's group) And after break we had to do this crappy Earth Day video (which by tha way it was supposed to be last week, but they said, "Fuck that we don't have time.") We got "Eco bag" so a senior went off to get plastic bags and we picked a 10th grade classroom. Most of the classrooms are being used by various groups. We filmed an awkward-looking video about a person using plastic bags and then it rips, and this guy starts raging. I HAD to admit this is actually a 100/100 storytelling and advocate for Earth-saving.

We went back to the auditorium where we tested each group's rollercoasters with a ping-pong ball. Ours was 12 seconds. I was so proud during building sessions, but after a group got 20 seconds, I'm already dead from there. But if we got 2nd place, at least we get an honorable mention. 

Heard that the first place gets a trophy for the STEM week and a prize. The junior said it was snacks and the senior wished it was money. Haha X)

But if it was me I'd beg for SNACKS. Going to agree with the junior here.

Glad I'm in a cool team. Nice game - it's been golden playing with you guys ^_*
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4th quarter was the same as the previous 3 [Mar. 21st, 2025|07:08 am]
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[Current Location |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Mood |Numb but pain]
[Current Music |Silence]

 Oh yeah. 4th quarter is here. I just decided that my goals are:
1. Complete that MLA formatted argumentative essay
2. Complete classworks as possible (the reason why my grades are failing)
3. Try to be positive
But I guess I'm failing the second one. That physics worksheet about balancing equations is torture; I picked the hard one and I have to do TWENTY of them... :(

Now that I aced Algebra last year, I'm trying to ace for last quarter too. But rational functions? Nope....

Also I'm plugging applesugar too. :) Nice 2 meet you again

Nikki out.

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Aced! [Mar. 14th, 2025|01:53 pm]
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[Current Mood |Euphoric but doubting]
[Current Location |Mom's workplace; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Music |None. But Signaldrift - And Yet's stuck in my head]

 School's out for a 3-day-break.

I'm typing this entry at Mom's workplace (the hospital). Y'know what I get for Algebra?

C! a C!

Last two quarters was just rocky: 1st quarter was F (I guess), 2nd quarter was D. Now it's a C! WOOOOOHHOOOOOO BAYBEEEEE!!!!

But that's not the point. I usually get something like 19/50 or 21/50 on that exam, but this time it's a 41/50! I was expecting 34 but this is worth it. 82%.

Physics' an A (?), ELA's a -B, IDK the rest.

Soon I'm getting braces for my lower teeth. It's gonna be a rocky week... and back to 4th quarter. DAMMIT!

Taught me 4 the better that it's looking in detail, not rushing. I think one thing that also aced my exams is taking the time. I used to rush while writing an answer because I didn't want to endure 2 hours of exam-taking, but since 2 hours is so long, I told myself "Hey girl I think you should use the time. It's better than sleeping in class." So I did.

Can't wait to tell mom this fabulous news once she arrives at the lobby.
Oh and after this I'm going to the mall. Woo. I guess?

Nikki off screaming and running with tears of joy. :) !

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Last day of 3rd quarter and I'm going to hit myself in the head [Mar. 13th, 2025|07:24 am]
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[Current Music |Silence]
[Current Location |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Mood |Dreadful but confident?]

 It's the last day of 3rd quarter exams... I got like Algebra and RE. 
But I'm dreading about Algebra because:

1. Radical functions
2. Exponential and Logarithm functions
3.Growth or decay
4. Regression
5. Properties of Logarithms
6. Common logarithms
7. Natural logarithms

... And tons more.

I'm off for a while. I'm out.
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Hello Friday [Mar. 7th, 2025|07:04 am]
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[Current Mood |Dreadful]
[Current Location |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[Current Music |Park Bird - Are You Lost but slowed down]

End of 3rd quarter is on the way, and I'll be damned because I'm getting braces too. I know that it causes discomfort in your mouth (but people I've met with braces told me that it's like having your teeth welded at all times) but I'll see if it can cause much pain. My discomfort was injections and the time I had gauze in my mouth. It felt weird.

I ditched the RE project, I only did 3 of it; one prayer journal entry, one bible verse, one sermon takeaway (which is impossible to summarize the video because it's more than 1 hour long), and most proud of was a poster about Faith.


And I am going to have that horrid computer class presentation of my animation project.

Signing out for now. Nikki out.

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Yet 'nother day at skool [Mar. 6th, 2025|07:05 am]
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[Current Music |Nothing yet, I do actually had Pinkpantheress in my head]
[Current Mood |Emotionless]
[Current Location |At school; Bangkok Thailand]

 As you can see I'm writing this at school.
They haven't get rid of mosquitoes yet. One bit my wrist.

I do remember every Friday they call in exterminators to spray chemicals so that those bloodsuckers die. But it's a Thursday! So...

I'm planning to do the RE project for the final time, because deadline of the project is tomorrow. I guess encouragement note, the sermon, and the acts of kindness is enough to give me a "satisfactory". I do wanna get the perfect score, but I am stressing out on why the project has a lot to do; my friends do complain about it too. Satisfactory is enough I guess.

... I do have a secret second journal hiding inside my homepage but it gets tricky when you gotta code it in so I am saving that later.

Will write more while working. XOXO
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A girl SCREAMED [Mar. 5th, 2025|08:19 pm]
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[Current Music |Perfume - Electro World]
[Current Mood |Annoyed yet hopeless]
[Current Location |At home, Bangkok, Thailand]

 Yo. No Pizzazz. I archived the rest of my entries and you can only access them if you are in the access list. I'm not making mine private. Just... well  the old entries are bullshit; I decided to hide them for a while.

This religious ed project is getting outta hand. I wasn't the only one who agreed that the project is too much: share a bible verse on SNS, encouragement note, CHURCH SERVICE, poster about faith, SERMON TAKEAWAY (can't even summarize them, the vdo is 1 hour long) and I've done only 2-3 so far. Deadline's this Friday, and it's a holiday.

And I made a new icon. Pretty cool I guess... I took my latest artwork and make it Livejournal-like. I need to find the font they've used.
Had Mizufont that looked close (downloaded it off an old photoshop graphics resource page) but those small gap in between the font outlines bothered me; I'm guessing. Those are intentionally used for smaller pictures. Back then they love anti-aliased small text.

Luv them too.

But OH WELL, I'm failing RE. I'm failing Algebra and Physics too.

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