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Went to the cinema to watch the new Lilo and Stitch [Jun. 14th, 2025|07:12 pm]
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[I feel... |Feeling weird]
[Nowhere in... |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |NOTHING YET]

 Ah. New entry. Today's kind of headache and stomach induced, not because of going to one of the rides in the theme park, but instead I have to sit in cinema #7 with 13-ish other people n.n I also got new braces again. No elastics, but the dreaded power chain becuz I cannot chew food now T_____T

Next appointment on 12/7. Anyways, have two pictures because it will look cluttered. Go look fo more in the website linked.

Nikki out >:)




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A special ed club in a christian community [Jun. 1st, 2025|07:29 pm]
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[I feel... |Content]
[I'm listening to |Nothing yet]
[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]

 No, I'm not writing about problems in Christianity. I felt that my last club wasn't good enough, and there's only 2 people (including me), so my mom arranged something with my previous teacher to let me attend the same class in another place. This time it's in the city - somewhat my favorite cuz' there's this feeling that stuff is going on, what to see and what to hear, compared to my previous one where it was in a town that can only accessed by a motorway (those roads that have tolls and cargoes). The company/team who hosts these programs usually have their employees find a place where it's accessible to people, and... this time it's in a Christian institute/community. I'm not sho if it's an institute or community but since it has dorms and frequent visitors I'm assuming it's both. The room has windows all over the room so it's easy to look if the boys are late (from buying at 7/11). Wow.

I can't remember it well but the branch in the city had 10 students, 3 or 2 withdrawn. We had to play a game about avoiding being caught as a spy and then we moved on to learning about being a reliable news sources and a legit good news anchor. Waait did I say it rite? 

The boys are hilarious, and the girls are nice. Exclude the obsessive phone scrolling, which plagues today :(

The community is also close to where mom studied during high school and uni. I saw this weird old cafe/hotel that's named Flo rida (space not intended but U NO WAT I MEAN) and another small cafe beside it called Tampa. When did the trend where cafes are named after states in America stop? I dunno. And I saw this kickass white with red outlines and structure building where my mom's ex used to stay, the smallest 7/11 ever beside an abandoned shop, this building named Conner (SIC, it's spelled like that), one of the first apartments in the area, and lotsa cool places I wished to stay, even though my house is about 3km away from the city area. At least I live near the city. Woohoo.

P.S. my mom got a new car - a white Kia Carnival (with this annoying 3 second jingle everytime you start the car and wen you remove the keys) (and it's too aware when somebody's motorcycle is near the car for about 4 inches). I traveled in that while going to the club, and I got a haircut. A fix on the bangs I fucked up last year and shorter hair.

I hope my 2 month break is worth it. But things are really changing...

Nikki out *kisses* *kisses* *kisses*
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Hope for the best [May. 29th, 2025|07:37 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Signaldrift - And Yet...]
[I feel... |Indifferent and sad]

It's years since I witness death. Did I?

My housemaid, or to me, my nanny, just had a stroke and a seizure while cooking. She's rushed to the hospital, and the doctor told my mom that 1. She needs to have her brain surgery done  2. She might have to take an ambulance to the hospital in her hometown 3. she has to be monitored 72 hours (about 3 days) and see if she can slowly recover. If not, goodbyes.

My mom had her driver go through her phone to contact her daughter and her husband. Her daughter's grieving for her while her retarded husband is still drunk during his shift. Now my brother and mom is crying. She got to eat the meal she cooked for her (my other nanny continued cooking the pumpkin for her). And now it's a 50/50 situation now. Die, live, I dunno.

She's with me since I was 5. I'm 14 turning 15 in two months and it's very unexpected to me; a while ago she went to buy me ice cream, and put grandma's clothes in the drawer, and a few hours or so she's in the hospital trying to breath...

My brother begged me to pray for her too. I thought it's a small situation, but now I'm trying my best not to cry. 
Let's hope for the best she didn't die, but now she can't work for my family. It's the end of the road now... things are changing...

Nikki out. Hugs and kisses.
P.S. the first time death happened to my family was my late great-grandma. But I was not sad about it because she was going to die at 99. Now that I think about it I'm going to cry
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Finals [May. 27th, 2025|07:32 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Signaldrift - And Yet (in my head)]
[I feel... |Confidence slowly growing]

 Was it finals though? Since it's the last exam for 9th grade.

I've already done business, ELA, physics, and religious ed. Tomorrow's Algebra. It's a subject that matters to me alot because if I get a grade lower than C, the entire world goes dark (guaranteed blindness). I think I got the hang of it! (exclude differentiating questions that are either permutation, combination, counting techniques and factorial) And from what I've heard from my friend the paper's like 4 pages. Guess I'm dead X_____________X

Reminder: On Friday it's partay tiiiiiiimmmmeeee!!!!! >:D I don't have the slightest idea what to wear. Maybe not uniform. That said I need to beg mom to buy cool clothes...
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Nu Braces [May. 18th, 2025|10:18 am]
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[I'm listening to |I Wouldn't Mind - He Is We]
[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I feel... |Indifferent]

 Sorry for hiatus ;___; Yesterday I got braces again. This time I chose yellow because green is too green-screen. I got plaque removal too; this dentist kept whining about how much plaque I have. MORE THAN HER KID. WTF??? YOU DON'T HAVE TO WHINE ABOUT IT, JUST INFORM. Aaaaand then they started talking about how they wished the other dentist was there to clear it up for me >:(

This time the canines occupied the space behind, and now they are trying to move the two teeth (previously behind the front two) to the front. OK I admit that my top teeth is going to look normal again with those two pulled to the front and I'm happy :) I'll have to wait.

At the counter I was informed that people with braces should brush often because the braces prevent them from reaching the dirty parts, and she gave me a CUREN toothbrush - muuch softer than the one I received the first time - and now I'm supposed to brush after I eat. Did I mention that I eat snacks alot???

Oh well. Tomorrow's going to be the week where I review for exams, because the week after that it's EXAM week, and class parties. I'm going to 10th grade soon, and I chose AP biology because I see potential that this could be handy for my portfolio or college entrance or something. Oh I have NO CLUE :) and when I get to 11th grade I'm taking AP psychology and maybe AP statistics. In the future I still pursue art but I want to get a job that supports me well. And I have no idea...

And yeah I fixed the photography page; Nikki out


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Got brace? Part two [Apr. 20th, 2025|06:15 am]
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[I feel... |Irritated]
[I'm listening to |Sneaker Pimps - Spin Spin Sugar]
[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]

 My time to switch elastics and applying braces to the bottom teeth is here. Well maybe not because I  slept and I haven't wrote an entry to this yet.

Like I promised, I chose red, but it ended up as REDDISH-ORANGE. And the bottom teeth has more teeth so the brackets are much more crowded than the top; Since it has more teeth, IT IRRITATES ME. I'm expecting 3 mouth ulcers :(   my orthodontist also told me that my upper teeth keeps clashing and covering my lower teeth, so she gave my bite pads (whitish stuff at the back of the teeth, if you can see) to fix my bite. At least my smile is slowly getting better from the usual grumpy frown; and not kidding you that's what usually happens when I close my mouth. I was informed I cannot chew hard food now, I have to switch to liquid soft foods. Congee was my closest friend now *_*

I thought it's going to hurt but it hasn't, and instead, makes you unconfortable.

I'll let it see fo yourselves. 

I'm planning to change the layout of my photography homepage too. It was going to reflect my previous-previous website but I think making it looking less cluttered (OK, well not much) but I want that layout to be hand-drawn and HAS SPICE.

P.S Thnx Katie for replying to my new character sheet. Haha

braces with reddish-orange elastics on each bracket
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Flood again? [Apr. 15th, 2025|05:44 pm]
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[I feel... |Excited for no reason]
[I'm listening to |Sneaker Pimps - Six Underground]
[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]

 Nope. Not flood, but possibly.
So there, I came back from this horrendous 5 day vacation in Cha' am (like I mentioned it earlier); I absolutely had nothing to do. All I did was walks on the beach, locking the room and do stuff on the laptop, and going to restaurants to eat. My family bought food from 7-11 and just cooked simple meals. At least better than starving to deth.

We went for Songkran but we didn't do anything. Speaking of that, around Sunday we went to a restaurant that's near a mountain and it took FOREVER to get there. At least their food is mad fierce. On the way back there are partygoers and people on pickups (trucks) loaded with a barrel filled with water and their trusty weapon of choice. The most impressive was a girl in small twintails with an automatic water spray. Anyways, the traffic was also LOCO (mad) and our family car got splashed too. Some black cars also had wet powder smeared so it looked like they messed around with paint.

And I went to 7-11 with mom and brother. With the urgency to go to the toilet real quick. Best day evarh!

When I shower in the bathroom it suddenly rained. Too dogs-and-cats grandma's windows leaked water. Our house's 20-ish years now.

.... and yeah I'm drawing new artwork. See you on DefiantART or my homepage or something. Ki off >:)
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In Cha' am - Hua-hin for Songkran :) [Apr. 11th, 2025|03:04 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |Hotel; Cha'am, Phetburi]
[I'm listening to |Yume Tagai - Soap World]
[I feel... |Numb but Excited]

Me and my family's in Cha' am rite now, we're in the same hotel I've been since like 6. Mom bought the room since I was a toddler and she bought all the furniture and decorated. When I got back the AC is already yellow. It's been like 15 years ago (a decade, I know) and stuff got old quick.

Our family must've been the earliest because there aren't more families who arrived at the place until like, afternoon (we arrived here around noon)

We looked around the place, and we saw those little sand piles beside the pool. Those are for sandcastle builds; so turns out each year they're not missing out Songkran.

My friends are in Pattaya or somewhere in Rayong today. They already had their water war at school yesterday; I was the only one who stayed in the room because I am NOT playing that. And that's a reason I don't wanna be in a state that involved soggy clothes.

I'm staying with my family for about 3-4 days. Alright. See you on the next entry. KK (Ki) out >:)
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Going to the mall [Apr. 7th, 2025|04:17 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Still Yume 2kki - The Ceiling (reversed)]
[I feel... |Happy]

 Short message - I'm going to the mall in the evening to eat at Coco-Ichibanya - to compensate on not going to Central WOrld because this Monday school doesn't respond to a public holiday... I finished my ELA homework, and I need to guide Folk through his unfinished argumentative essay...

Thursday: bring water gun and a buncha spare clothes and very big towel... don't get splashed; if not stay upstairs until 3 in the afternoon :)

OK Ki out >:P
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Saturday is no fun at all [Apr. 5th, 2025|09:47 am]
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[Nowhere in... |In hell; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Yume 2kki - The Ceiling (reversed)]

 Today was just going to be right. I asked mom if she can take me to TK Park (the library) and Maisen (the restaurant) at Central World. I had lotta fond memories there. I remember during Covid (the last time I went there before I have to move to another country) I saw kids playing, kids lying down and sliding down upside down (LOL) and Chinese grandparents arguing whether or not they should go or something... I only learnt Chinese for 4 years in my life, so I dunno what they R arguing about.

But my parents shut the idea down, and rescheduled it to next Monday (becuz it's public holiday). WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE CHAINGING DAYS? I. HATE. MY. PARENTS :(

But I have to put up with it and continue my argumentative essay - MLA formatted.

I also have 2 hours of Algebra tutoring. I hope mom stops sending me to the special ed because she think's I'm retarded.

Check ya. Nikki off.
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Earthquake [Mar. 28th, 2025|03:27 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |At home, Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Still KLEAR - คำยินดี in my head]
[I feel... |Hopelessly hopeful]

 I was in a badminton match with my partner during PE, and my teacher just screamed "EARTHQUAKE!" outta nowhere. I was like "The hell? Another fire drill?". By the time I was going to head down I felt a faint rumbling. But it wasn't a 7.7 richter scaled, it was more like rumbling at a nearby construction site. 

Me and my classmates sat outside along with other students. Some joked about filming the last livestream/video, Folk started talking about his cat (I forgot all these years that he owned a cat) and when it's time I headed to Thai class.

Thai class was the same. Miss didn't make us do our woven fish project, instead she opened a YouTube livestream from a news source. Frantic livestream messages. People saying that at 14:30 it's going to experience aftershock. Mom stuck in traffic (she had to send her colleagues back home in Ladprao and back). Parents swarming all over the place in school. This is the first time ever I've seen parents in school the size of a concert crowd. Normally there's less. x_x

Their parents usually work in offices, and since it's in the center of Bangkok, things got worse. Some of my classmates are notified that their parents are going to pick them up early. 

Brother's still chatting to friends in a chatgroup. He snapped photos too.
One of his friends said that his condo's falling apart, the other being joke messages to lighten up, Dunno how mine turned out.
But if it's grandma she's running away to Majorca with her piano  she will be back in a bit.


Ok. This message's going out 2 my friends, 2 my family, 2 everyone.

If I die in an event or an illness, and I'm inactive, please tell everyone that this blog is dead X_X 
Nah kidding. XOXO hope everyone's safe.

Will be back in a bit
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STEM project with 4 other highschoolers [Mar. 27th, 2025|06:31 pm]
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[I feel... |Dreadfully hopeful]
[I'm listening to |KLEAR - คำยินดี]
[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]

 STEM week was fun. Highschoolers got the STEM activity late.

They randomly select students from 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th students to team up and build a rollercoaster made out of 250 straws. I was lost in the crowd (because I forgot to look at the group name the night before) but coincidentally the 11th grader in the group spotted my behind her back. We did tons of figuring (on how to make a rollercoaster that makes the ball last the longest in the tracks)
and the guys in the group did most of it. Our group was situated in the middle of the auditorium (groups numbered 33-40+ had to do their projects in the classrooms) and then friends of a girl in the group dared this guy to beatbox; so loud that the groups around the area started looking at us O_O

Jeeja kept visiting me. Yeah. Our rollercoaster was 2nd tallest in height (1st was somebody's group) And after break we had to do this crappy Earth Day video (which by tha way it was supposed to be last week, but they said, "Fuck that we don't have time.") We got "Eco bag" so a senior went off to get plastic bags and we picked a 10th grade classroom. Most of the classrooms are being used by various groups. We filmed an awkward-looking video about a person using plastic bags and then it rips, and this guy starts raging. I HAD to admit this is actually a 100/100 storytelling and advocate for Earth-saving.

We went back to the auditorium where we tested each group's rollercoasters with a ping-pong ball. Ours was 12 seconds. I was so proud during building sessions, but after a group got 20 seconds, I'm already dead from there. But if we got 2nd place, at least we get an honorable mention. 

Heard that the first place gets a trophy for the STEM week and a prize. The junior said it was snacks and the senior wished it was money. Haha X)

But if it was me I'd beg for SNACKS. Going to agree with the junior here.

Glad I'm in a cool team. Nice game - it's been golden playing with you guys ^_*
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4th quarter was the same as the previous 3 [Mar. 21st, 2025|07:08 am]
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[Nowhere in... |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Silence]
[I feel... |Numb but pain]

 Oh yeah. 4th quarter is here. I just decided that my goals are:
1. Complete that MLA formatted argumentative essay
2. Complete classworks as possible (the reason why my grades are failing)
3. Try to be positive
But I guess I'm failing the second one. That physics worksheet about balancing equations is torture; I picked the hard one and I have to do TWENTY of them... :(

Now that I aced Algebra last year, I'm trying to ace for last quarter too. But rational functions? Nope....

Also I'm plugging applesugar too. :) Nice 2 meet you again

Nikki out.

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Change [Mar. 15th, 2025|10:13 am]
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[I'm listening to |Humming sounds in the hospital]
[Nowhere in... |Hospital; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I feel... |Lonely]

I couldn't think of a title. Today me, mom and brother went to the psychiatrist (it wasn't me) and it was the first time she met me in 3d, 4k. And she's pretty tall.

The new building is now hosting the pediatric center; the old ones are closed.... I miss them TT but the new building encapsulated 2020s interior design. Even it's new it still gave me a sense of nostalgia. Smells fresh too.

And then after my brother's appointment we ate at Sukishi. I still have that nauseating feeling in my tummy after I went home. 

My tutor was happy about my Algebra scores :) !

Maybe I'll write more. Wished I took pictures of the place earlier.

Hugs-kisses Nikki off.
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Aced! [Mar. 14th, 2025|01:53 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |Mom's workplace; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |None. But Signaldrift - And Yet's stuck in my head]
[I feel... |Euphoric but doubting]

 School's out for a 3-day-break.

I'm typing this entry at Mom's workplace (the hospital). Y'know what I get for Algebra?

C! a C!

Last two quarters was just rocky: 1st quarter was F (I guess), 2nd quarter was D. Now it's a C! WOOOOOHHOOOOOO BAYBEEEEE!!!!

But that's not the point. I usually get something like 19/50 or 21/50 on that exam, but this time it's a 41/50! I was expecting 34 but this is worth it. 82%.

Physics' an A (?), ELA's a -B, IDK the rest.

Soon I'm getting braces for my lower teeth. It's gonna be a rocky week... and back to 4th quarter. DAMMIT!

Taught me 4 the better that it's looking in detail, not rushing. I think one thing that also aced my exams is taking the time. I used to rush while writing an answer because I didn't want to endure 2 hours of exam-taking, but since 2 hours is so long, I told myself "Hey girl I think you should use the time. It's better than sleeping in class." So I did.

Can't wait to tell mom this fabulous news once she arrives at the lobby.
Oh and after this I'm going to the mall. Woo. I guess?

Nikki off screaming and running with tears of joy. :) !

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Last day of 3rd quarter and I'm going to hit myself in the head [Mar. 13th, 2025|07:24 am]
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[Nowhere in... |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Silence]
[I feel... |Dreadful but confident?]

 It's the last day of 3rd quarter exams... I got like Algebra and RE. 
But I'm dreading about Algebra because:

1. Radical functions
2. Exponential and Logarithm functions
3.Growth or decay
4. Regression
5. Properties of Logarithms
6. Common logarithms
7. Natural logarithms

... And tons more.

I'm off for a while. I'm out.
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Got brace? [Mar. 8th, 2025|06:03 pm]
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[Nowhere in... |At home; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |KLEAR - คำยินดี (Congratulations) (LOL this is the english name)]
[I feel... |Nervous as always]

Got braces. Looked weird because of the light blue color.
I was going for green, but it's so green it looked like a greenscreen; I was aiming for darker blue too, but light baby blue looked authentic enough.

Part TWO: I was going to get like electric blue, but chose light blue because it reminded me the time I was younger; at the back of my mind the most common color I've seen (with braces) are shades of blue, mostly light. A throwback to that one.

But I changed my mind and wanted the electric blue, but too late, they fitted brackets with baby blue rubber bands. Number 14 on the sample board.

When I got to the dentist I was scared that they would tighten the wires and it would hurt. Well they didn't but in 2-3 days it's gonna be uncomfortable; when I heard that I was like "GREAT."While they worked on putting brackets they sprayed water and this substance that gives you a damn weird flavor you might go to the sink and spit it all out. I did. I spat.

If this hurts tomorrow then the special ED class must be torture.
But I think tooth extraction feels more overwhelming.

Next time I'm trying red.

Nikki out >:)

P.S OK it's starting to hurt now.

Me with braces on the top teeth, the color of the bands are light blue
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Hello Friday [Mar. 7th, 2025|07:04 am]
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[I'm listening to |Park Bird - Are You Lost but slowed down]
[Nowhere in... |At school; Bangkok, Thailand]
[I feel... |Dreadful]

End of 3rd quarter is on the way, and I'll be damned because I'm getting braces too. I know that it causes discomfort in your mouth (but people I've met with braces told me that it's like having your teeth welded at all times) but I'll see if it can cause much pain. My discomfort was injections and the time I had gauze in my mouth. It felt weird.

I ditched the RE project, I only did 3 of it; one prayer journal entry, one bible verse, one sermon takeaway (which is impossible to summarize the video because it's more than 1 hour long), and most proud of was a poster about Faith.


And I am going to have that horrid computer class presentation of my animation project.

Signing out for now. Nikki out.

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Yet 'nother day at skool [Mar. 6th, 2025|07:05 am]
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[I'm listening to |Nothing yet, I do actually had Pinkpantheress in my head]
[Nowhere in... |At school; Bangkok Thailand]
[I feel... |Emotionless]

 As you can see I'm writing this at school.
They haven't get rid of mosquitoes yet. One bit my wrist.

I do remember every Friday they call in exterminators to spray chemicals so that those bloodsuckers die. But it's a Thursday! So...

I'm planning to do the RE project for the final time, because deadline of the project is tomorrow. I guess encouragement note, the sermon, and the acts of kindness is enough to give me a "satisfactory". I do wanna get the perfect score, but I am stressing out on why the project has a lot to do; my friends do complain about it too. Satisfactory is enough I guess.

... I do have a secret second journal hiding inside my homepage but it gets tricky when you gotta code it in so I am saving that later.

Will write more while working. XOXO
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A girl SCREAMED [Mar. 5th, 2025|08:19 pm]
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[I feel... |Annoyed yet hopeless]
[Nowhere in... |At home, Bangkok, Thailand]
[I'm listening to |Perfume - Electro World]

 Yo. No Pizzazz. I archived the rest of my entries and you can only access them if you are in the access list. I'm not making mine private. Just... well  the old entries are bullshit; I decided to hide them for a while.

This religious ed project is getting outta hand. I wasn't the only one who agreed that the project is too much: share a bible verse on SNS, encouragement note, CHURCH SERVICE, poster about faith, SERMON TAKEAWAY (can't even summarize them, the vdo is 1 hour long) and I've done only 2-3 so far. Deadline's this Friday, and it's a holiday.

And I made a new icon. Pretty cool I guess... I took my latest artwork and make it Livejournal-like. I need to find the font they've used.
Had Mizufont that looked close (downloaded it off an old photoshop graphics resource page) but those small gap in between the font outlines bothered me; I'm guessing. Those are intentionally used for smaller pictures. Back then they love anti-aliased small text.

Luv them too.

But OH WELL, I'm failing RE. I'm failing Algebra and Physics too.

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