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New Home [Nov. 3rd, 2025|07:23 pm]
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[Current Music |Miilkbone - Keep it Real]
[Current Mood | Numb]
[Current Location |New home, away from the old husk of memories]

 I finally moved to a new house, literally next road from where I once lived (Mom's childhood community). It's actually pretty decent o___o now I got my own room, but now I have to deal with my brother crashing my room. AAAAAAAARGH. Mom told me we are going to live here for a year or two until grandma dies or cools down with the box clogging the house situation. My room's pretty tiny but with a high ceiling, but it came with a small toilet, and I gotta admit, IT SUCKS. The room was extremely small, the toilet, the sink and the shower is close to each to other. I guess the only time I'll be using that crappy toilet is when I wake up early to pee or poo.

I also have this computer project too, but I think it's allowed to cool down a bit because we got lessons to catch up. Phew. I have an upcoming Christmas concert, a field trip to a historic site that has miniature replicas of other historic sites.

I need to draw more posters, decorate my room (even the landlord might not allow it), and wait for that small phone. Nikki out *chugs Fanta*
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Exactly like the girl in the picture [Oct. 31st, 2025|08:57 am]
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[Current Location |School]
[Current Mood | MAD.]
[Current Music |The sound of the AC and the clanking of a construction site]

 I GOT A HAIRCUT. I was going for the same haircut for Etero but my hair is thick and  Mom's hairdresser suggested that a bob should suffice because if I blow-dry it with a hairdryer I look like a lion. When another hairdresser had me go through all bob hairstyles on her phone I was trying to find a GENUINE ONE she spotted that it's near the same pixie haircut and she told to the other guy that "YO. SHE WANTS THAT HAIRCUT. SHE KEPT SCROLLING AROUND THAT ONE!" I was EMBARASSED. In the end I got the short bob haircut, and I admit, I was extremely sad becuz' I got no dream haircut. WOES. I was in complete distressed to the point that I had visions of me dying in the middle of the road while people form a circle around and mom would cry for a whole year when she saw my dead body on the news.

Haha I was being delusional. Aside from that I have this dreaded computer class presentation about coding and I got nu braces - light tictac green. No power chains though. That one bracket kept falling off ;___;

I updated I-M.net too. A new layout bout' skool. I am planning to do that in-lieu-of-not-celebrating-halloween picture and character pages too. And I'm waiting for my new phone. A teeny tiny blue one. But I'll have to wait until November. *pout*

NIKKI STORMING OUT!
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Confetti [Oct. 9th, 2025|03:56 pm]
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[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Pessimistic]
[Current Music |Whatevah I'm watching right now]

 No, I'm not celebrating anything (well, except that it's the first time my report card is filled with grades ranging from -Bs to As... and one -C) but I've been binging Utube again. It's becoming more common than ever - oh well I mean I've been like that since 2015 ;___; it's makin' me sad everyday... but after hopping from one VDO to next I ended up watching the ball drop footages of the year 2000. I loved how people were hollering at the cameras with joy, a group of happy people, and I loved those colorful balloons. 

Of course I'm a gen Z'er in the big '25 being obsessed with retro stuff, but damn. This reminds me of the footage from 2023 in Paris when everybody was holding up phones. Social media obsessed much?

Aaaaaside, school's closed. Nowadays my school pressures me to have a phone for group chats n' stuff. All we did was send obnoxious pictures like a screencap and short messages from the teacher. Nothing much. Can't they make a corkboard where everybody can put notes and obnoxious stuff on it?

I do remember the moment when it's one day before a new year, I tried to pull an all-nighter, but because I have no caffeine and I can get easily sleepy so I slept anyways *lol*

I'm looking forward to Biz's Halloween piccie crossover. I can't decide if I should put Juha or whatever characters I have. I'll have to see because I want Juha to be some sort of wizard.... heheheheh. If now, that's okay.

And despite all of this rambling, it's me being pissed at the world now in October. Nikki out XOXO
p.s. I'm looking forward to 2026 too, even that's after 2 whole months
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Toy camae-RUH [Oct. 3rd, 2025|06:10 pm]
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[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood | Okay]
[Current Music |My nu ringtone - Psyche Origami - Dead Right]

Funniest thing of all is that last night - well, 3 am to be exact, there was this weird storm going on. I tell ya, there was lightning and it was 10 TIMES IN A ROW. NONSTOP. I woke up around 4 and was confused about "why is the weather acting crayzay today?" and after about 1 minute and a half I slept again. At school my friends also has a footage of what's going on outside - so it happened that one of my classmates arrived at school very early and did witness the raging storm going on. It was chaotic; constant flashing in the sky. 

Okay, let's skip to school. Today isn't exams, because all the boys are going to military training. So I'm stuck in class with the other girls and three guys (who happened not to join the military). During religious ed class I was going to play with my camera and then my friend beside me asked "Is that your camera?" and after that we took about 2-3 piccies; the next thing is that all the girls in my class were taking group photos. We shot a picture of individual photos, messing around with poses and then because I don't know how to turn on the flash, we had to use light from the phone. That's when it hits low battery ;__;

I walked around in school with my new mary janes. It hurts when you have to crisscross your legs while sitting on the floor. Ooowww...
But it was worth it.They looks so cute!

Mom, stepdad and grandpa's on a vacation, and the other nanny's sick, so mom's driver looked after us instead. And one more thing. I managed to make a ringtone for my 6000B tacky black glass phone. Oh I have NO IDEA why they love making rectangular phones, but I managed to transfer Psyche Origami's Dead Right in there. It wasn't iOS either because androids have a ringtone folder. Handy.

I'm off to complete an art project. Nikki out
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Blood Bubble [Oct. 2nd, 2025|08:32 pm]
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[Current Music |Finding a new ringtone for my fone]
[Current Mood | Uncomfortable]
[Current Location |Home]

AP Bio test is actually okay. Multiple choice questions on the laptop is pretty decent o___o, but the worst part was the free-response questions: there are 5 questions, each have 4 parts, and the main question is EXTREMELY LONG. It took about 6-7 pages. What's worse is that after the exam one of the smart guys (who wants to be a doctor) told me that question #3 part 2's answer is hydrolysis. I spent HOURS trying to find the name of the process that breaks down molecules, so I ended up describing how the lysosome (part of the cell that breaks down) works. *punches head trillion times* AAAAAAAAA. :( this is not going to look good when I get the report card...

Now I'm studying for accounting and english. Oh yeah, and when I was walking around the room upstairs a shard of small glass stabbed my toe. OUCH. When I managed to squeeze the small shard out there was a big blood bubble out of nowhere. How can it bleed THIS much? But now I have to walk around the room in my new Mary Janes. I blame my brother and the phone he dropped earlier. Those must've been the film thingy on his phone because it's cracked.

I'm never going to let him in grandma's room again >:( anyways can't wait to draw new pictures on Katie's spanking new oekaki; I don't have trouble drawing on Fire'paca but when it comes to oekakis it ends up like a rotting carebear ;__;
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Live by the theorems and postulates [Oct. 1st, 2025|08:51 am]
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[Current Mood | Worried]
[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Location |School]

 Uwaaaaaaaa ;____; tomorrow is the start of my exams and I haven't studied yet... my biggest concern is that I have to remember every rule of geometry (because geometry is also about proving stuff) and the entirety of lessons from biology class.

I haven't submitted my digital art picture for the exam too, but since the grade is still an A, I hope it stays like that.

Ah, and nice to know that Katie's moved hosts. I want to move too (craving the advantages of PHP), but I have to keep up with all the studying and I don't think I can get the site up and running in 2 months (as the classic hosting rule goes, hostees must get their site up in 2 months, or their directory/homepage is deleted) :(

I need to go study. Hope I can remember all the postulates and whatever bio class has. *kiss* *hugs* I'm OUT!
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All aboard!! [Sep. 28th, 2025|07:31 pm]
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[Current Mood | Happy]
[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Location |Home]

 I went to the mall (which happened to be the hotspot for tourists and expats) with my mom today; we ate food (it was DELISH) \^o^/, we went to Kinokuniya (the bookstore) and got nothing cuz' all drawing tutorial books are from that one Japanese author who draws generic animu girls, and we took the train to the Sunday art class.

I did well at art class today! (thank gawd that teacher wasn't here because he gave me a headache) I had to color a picture with shades of gray. 

Best of all was this was the first time I took the train myself, and it was fun!!!!!!! Passed five stops, back to the mall; mom was so worried about me being kidnapped/lost but I eventually made it. Now I do wanna try and go places with that, but it's only in the central part of Bangkok. I need to learn how to use the bus because I dunno where it goes :p

But exam is in two days and I haven't studied yet :( !

Kiki OUT
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And the entire canteen looked at 'em [Sep. 16th, 2025|03:54 pm]
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[Current Location |Gramma's room]
[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Mood | Worried and bored]

I was eating barbecue Lays and spicy roasted seaweed in the canteen (it was during break time) and then this guy from the other class and a 12th grader started beating up each other. That was unexpected O____O and then they knocked a bowl of spicy sauce from a nearby table and everybody was there staring including me; so that guy (I know his name, and he used to be my classmate last year, but nopenope I am not putting his name here) was mad at another guy for posting a photo somewhere on the internet, and when it was break time he immediately choked the 12th grader. Wat. da. Fuck?

In the end only one guy (or both) got suspended for fighting. Of course.

I remember last year during the dance rehearsal for some international fair at school everybody was arguing about stage stuff, blahblahblah and then the same guy punched the desk and stormed off to the toilet. I guess he's already violent n.n;
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Aim high [Aug. 31st, 2025|06:26 pm]
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[Current Music |FFK (Faye Fang Kaew) - My question]
[Current Mood | Worried]
[Current Location |Home]

 The extracurriculum club thingy was boring because this time they brought in a teacher who taught us about money. Me and the kids in the room played some sort of Monopoly, except you ain't buying a house; you have to pick a random job. I got elementary school teacher T_T and then each job has a starting job payment. Then you will have to go thru events like either buying a piggy bank and saving money in the bank or caught speeding and lose 100. And there are some games like UNO but those special cards mean nothing, numbers do, and the simplified version of gambling.

In the end I won because I hid alot of money with me *grin*

Mom had me go through what to do to get a communication arts diploma so that I can go to some uni. I did listen to her, but her using ChatGPT or whatever got me seething for no reason. I'm against AI. Can't chu' tell? From now on I gotta study design, psychology (soon) and biology. It's already hard o___o

And when I came out of the toilet with music in my head (and a phone, duh durrr) I accidently waved my hand near the American-indian-decoration-which-is-two-indigenous-men-rowing-a-boat-grandma-bought-17-ish-years-ago and it shattered on the floor. I felt a bit of guilt, but I cleared the mess. I have a feeling this is a foreshadowing... hope it's a... good sign? Nah, nothing comes good out of it *sobs*

( And... postscript because I found out something. READ IF YOU REALLY WANT TO. )


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Get egg'ed [Aug. 22nd, 2025|05:55 pm]
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[Current Mood |Guilty *just like the gear*]
[Current Music |Maybe Boa - Rain or Hilary Duff - Come Clean]
[Current Location |Room of despair]

It's me again. Writing the most boring entry ever n.n; . So during lunch I was ordering an omelette (for 30 baht) and while I was waiting, the lady put the freshly cooked omelette on MY plate. You see, when you order an omelette at my school, they get you a plate of rice after you order... which meant that the plate is your order (confusing, I know) and then they will fill each order.

Right. The omelette. When she put the omelette on a plate, dumb me thought that it was my order, so I brought it to the table to eat. When I tear the egg into half: that's when I fucked up :( !!!

The omelette was SOMEBODY ELSE'S ORDER... it was no plain omelette, it had chopped up sausages and cheese in it. My pulse immediately hopped, and I looked over the omelette stand. Just a girl and a guy standing by and a cook trying to add a second bowl of rice to a plate. My order was there absorbing stale air of the canteen. The egg was already cut in half, no use of returning it...

And so I ate it. I rushed it before the owner of the order could see me eating theirs, aaaand then I dumped the rest. I ran as fast as I could back to my classroom (4 floors, impressive), opened my laptop and complete my accounting homework.

Now I don't have the guts to go back to the omelette stand now T___T If I go back again I hope they would accept my apology. THIS IS WHY THEY NEED QUEUE CARDS AGAIN. >:(

Anyhoo, I had to review for geometry again. This teacher I had looked so grumpy. He talks very loud (so that the entire class could pay attention to him) and kinda looks veryveryvery stern o__o I do agree with my friend that his mood affected the entire class and now she kind of hates him. I do too, but I wish I could see him smile more often. I cannot change his will anyway... I hope the trope "teacher everybody dislikes ends up the most loving teacher ever" is upon our class. *LOL* let's just see it for ourselves.

Oh, and I'm planning to move my homepage domain to immoral-heart, because I miss having a website with a handmade photoshop-esque animu layout, very cool domain name, quirky buttons, and very nostalgic designs. If I could buy a server/hosting package that grants 1GB, I would turn it into a hosting page... just because of the link. Haha... ^_^ I want people who are desperate to get a website that has a unique link. I'm one of them! *hand up*

So heads up, I'm changing the domain to immoral-heart (it would take a million years to update the links) and I hope I could whip up a cool layout fo myself.

And I think it's my fault anyways, because the person who ordered that omelette I snatched had to eat my order or buy another one, and I think nobody eats mine anyways  TT

p.s. Happy birthday Dr. Baldhead!!! *party whistle sounds*


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It's okay but it doesn't AT ALL [Aug. 5th, 2025|03:32 pm]
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[Current Music |Silent Hill 2 - Day of Night]
[Current Mood | Sad]
[Current Location |Home]

 I'm sweating buckets of sweat because I just had PE as my last class. I'm used to having PEs near afterschool, lol.

So, I'm in 10th grade now. I'm in AP Biology so I'm expected to study at home too. They called it time-extensive. But then after Geometry it goes downhill because the teacher sounds so strict about work and stuff. I know work is expected. The fact that this school year starts off strict and challenging makes me feel worse ;___;
Aside from that I haven't been active in months, better thank PE for keeping me awake.

There are friends from 5th grade alongside some from my previous class too. But the fact that nobody talked to me gave me the urge to tear people's bodies >:( (oh great. I'm edgy) but hey. My other friends in other classes seem happy. The guys in class were outgoing as usual and Folk got a new jacket. It looks so cool. Wow.

It's not doing well so far.

But if work gets sorted out I'd be happy too o__o
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Hell on Earth, HERE I COME! [Aug. 3rd, 2025|05:37 pm]
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[Current Music |Whatever I can find on Yume 2kki]
[Current Mood | Nervous]
[Current Location |Home]

 Well lookit that! I have 2 days until 10th grade. 
That means I'm meeting some of my old friends from 6th grade, and some strangers ;______;
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Coolkids district [Jul. 20th, 2025|03:29 pm]
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[Current Music |Whatever I want to >;)]
[Current Mood | Pleased]
[Current Location |Home sweet home (not the horror game)]

After the class thing I had every Sunday my mom took me to Siam Square to return some random seat-cleaning product. And then we went to buy stickers, ate a katsudon (rice bowl with chicken cutlets and omelette on top), and strolled around finding American Eagle but now it's replaced with Adidas. Damn :(

I guess we had to find one at a mall near me; I saw one there. It would be great if they still have those slim t-shirts or whatever is close to that. I love those <3

While I was there I saw this woman (I'm not sure, but from the voice, probably a woman) with short hair, blue shirt and white pants dancing and prancing in one area. She makes me happy.

I'm telling you. I aspire to be her. She doesn't care what people think, and she clearly seemed to enjoy dancing. But I'm too shy, and guess it'll never happen x___x


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Fight for the future (not Street Fighter III) [Jul. 16th, 2025|07:37 pm]
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[Current Location |Resting place (house)]
[Current Mood | Mad]
[Current Music |Whatever's on my mind]

I dunno how I got back to Artfight. HOW??? 
But all I know is I joined once in 2022 and then left it because I had to idea what the whole game was about, then today I joined again. This time they placed me in team Crystal, and it's falling behind T______T

I made four artworks. Favorite has to be Yue, Jing Loong and the fat Ray-Catpri-Sun.
Sorry, Medi n.n;

And now I'm mad because nobody's doing art for me yet >:(


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Fifteen candles on the cake [Jul. 13th, 2025|06:33 pm]
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[Current Location |Bedroom]
[Current Mood | Nervous]
[Current Music |Not yet]

Officially 15, baybeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Sucks that this year we don't have cake, but we do have Pizza and an extra amount of chicken wings, breaksticks and salad (I only ate the breadsticks and pizza).

This morning me, mom, stepdad and brother went to this Korean charcoal-grill restaurant. Me, mom and brother went to this exact place many many times before; anyways. I enjoyed the grilled meat, quail eggs marinated in soy sauce, marinated spinach, garlic fried rice, and copious amounts of korean sauce. Spicy and tasted good :) then we went to two bookstores where I bought this book titled "Silent Sister" by Megan Davidhizar; I picked one that would look interesting (it so happened that I judged a book by it's cover) and this made the cut.

I've only read the 7th chapter and so far, this got me *hooked* solely because it switches views between two characters, one finding and one lost. I loved one of the sister's entries where it has writings at the end of each entry. Something like:

People will love me for who I am.
People will love me for who I am.
People will love me for who I am.
People will love me for who I am.
People will love me for who I am.
People will love me for who I am...

... and the list goes on.

I am also sure that it has poem stuff too. Niiice.

But it somehow had black magic too because it mentioned an anagram for eleven-plus-two, which can be swapped around as twelve-plus-one and both equates to 13. That's my birthdate. And same goes for the number of the street I lived. I think it also mentioned 15 too. O____o; ????

I do wanted a flip phone for my birthday, but I'm scared mom would find it unreasonable because mom needs Line for communications, but I wanted to take a cut from scrolling thru Youtube and find videos explaining why the present is soulless. Yeah. It really it soulless. But it would be cool if I owned it. And grandma can take my to D.I.Y to buy those blinged out stickers so I can bedazzle my butt away. I think it needs this weird sd card so I can dump MP3s in and do stuff with it.

I'm going to do a celebratory picture for myself too, but I don't wanna waste my eyes on the screen and dig in this book, so I'm doing it tomorrow.

Also, thanks for the birthday gift Bizette!!! *omg* although it was one of Etero's earliest iterations I'm still allowing weird patterns on her body n.n;

I haven't taken the brace picture yet. Hoo boy, there's alot of pictures in the card and it would take one whole day to edit them.
Nikki signing off.

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Oh-my-starz (so many patients left!!!) [Jul. 12th, 2025|08:32 pm]
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[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Mood | In pain]
[Current Location |House arrest *smile*]

 Guess I got over the gay-ass-old-stinky-old-house, since the neighbourhood is 30 years old, after all. 4 hours ago my family went to this terrarium/indoor reserve (wait what the hell whatsit called???) that's like 15 degrees celcius and look at winter plants, one of them being tulips. Beautiful. Then we went to a restaurant beside the sea, and had fantabulous food. It's pretty decent, however my favorite was the one we went on the second day (Nongnuch seafood, you askin' me) their omelet+ fish cake and other stuff we ordered was delish. My mom got surprised because the food is dead cheap too. Usually seafood is priced around 1000 baht but this. This restaurant is the real deal. About 650 per fish, the total price for all the food we ordered is 2525. Angel number ALERT WOOT WOOT

Tomorrow's my birthday now, and a holiday too! Turned out I share a birthday with one of the King's wives (wait did I remember it right?) and it's a public holiday (oh well it's a Sunday) so mom cancelled that class-in-this-niche-christian-community-plus-center and asked me where to eat, because of course it's my birthday. I want to go to Siam Center, the place where mom grew up her entire life. She used to go there to the tutor when she's in high school, then when she's in university she was too lazy to look at lecture notes so she bought notes from her friends (sold there) and read it. She ended up getting 3.1 while her friends got about 3.25 or something and they were like "Whaddahell how did you get 3.1 and not read?????"; and now she usually goes to the cafe to wait for my class to end. Life revolved around this place *hahahaha*

I went to the dentist again for obvious reasons. This time the power chain were banded to two bottom teeth both sides. I haven't taken a picture of it but I'll do it soon... and damn. It hurts. But the pain should go away tomorrow, if it doesn't, goodbye cruel world becuz I can't eat normal food now T________T

Kiki off o___^
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Lonely neighbourhood [Jul. 10th, 2025|02:54 pm]
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[Current Location |Somewhere in Rayong]
[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Mood | unamused]

 Our place was in this very old neighbourhood right by the sea, and the house we're in smells old as fuck. It stinks >:(
And AC's not that efficient

For now I'll just suffer. BRB
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On tha way to Rayong [Jul. 9th, 2025|03:00 pm]
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[Current Music |Nothing yet]
[Current Mood | Not amused]
[Current Location |At home]

 Tomorrow I'm going to Rayong for 2 days, then go to the dentist, and then the day after that is my birthday *confetti and party horn noises* 
Rayong is near Pattaya, one of the most foreigner-infested places (among Krabi and southern Thailand) but we are going the other side of Pattaya, so it'll be much more quiet. I do wanna go to Pattaya but my parent's aren't keen about the noise and whatever people who probably follow FarangsofPattaya

I've been to Pattaya before. I do wanna go to the mall near the "PATTAYA" sign on the hill, and eat shitloads of Japanese food but nope it's not happening <_<

I don't even know in the first place why my parents TAKE US ON A VACATION .v.

Enough ranting. Kiki out o_o

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We have a nu house *actually, not a new house* [Jun. 29th, 2025|05:15 pm]
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[Current Mood |Excited]
[Current Music |Nothing yet, but I do wanna listen to music]
[Current Location |At my usual place]

 Nope. This is not about me moving to anotehr place. If you are in the same community as I am, you'll probably know about the glamfur community journal on LJ. It died around 2013, and we don't have a place to show glamfur-y stuff now, so I made one.

I'm waiting for people to make posts on there... anyways special ed club is horrible ._____.

Here's the link:[ NU_GLAMFUR ]
Ki off to updating the homepage. Bye ^_________^
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Went to the cinema to watch the new Lilo and Stitch [Jun. 14th, 2025|07:12 pm]
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[Current Location |At home]
[Current Music |NOTHING YET]
[Current Mood |Feeling weird]

 Ah. New entry. Today's kind of headache and stomach induced, not because of going to one of the rides in the theme park, but instead I have to sit in cinema #7 with 13-ish other people n.n I also got new braces again. No elastics, but the dreaded power chain becuz I cannot chew food now T_____T

Next appointment on 12/7. Anyways, have two pictures because it will look cluttered. Go look fo more in the website linked.

Nikki out >:)




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